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Posted on 10th August 2019

By Amber Izzo

Amber Izzo

Navigating life, IVF and infertility as a chocolate loving, tea drinking, twenty-something year old woman.

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6 years, 7 months and 30 days ago I stopped taking my pill, and if you’d have told me I still wouldn’t have a child then, I would never have believed you. Every day since that day, I have thought about being pregnant. I have thought about what I would name my children, I have thought about how I will decorate their rooms, I have favourited maternity dresses on @asos and I have planned my changing of jobs based on qualifying for maternity pay, I’ve said no to a million and one things based on funding IVF and I’ve had more than one bout of seriously poor mental health.

When I found out I was infertile in 2018, my mental health suffered immensely. Part of that struggle was feeling as though I was letting my husband down; I felt guilty because I knew that if he was with anybody else, he wouldn’t have to go through this. He wouldn’t have to watch his wife crumble, he wouldn’t have to struggle to become a Papà, he wouldn’t have to fight this battle.

WORLD IVF DAY 💉

I shared a post to my stories this week from @gatewaywomen about childlessness and female friendships, and I was astounded at how many messages I had from people telling me that it resonated with them. I don’t know why I was surprised, because it had resonated with me too… so much.

AD | It’s really hard trying to keep yourself calm (and sane) when you’re struggling to conceive. You’re full of anxieties, full of stress, and if you’re anything like me, you find it hard to switch off and escape. It’s incredibly difficult not to feel consumed, tired and like you’re running on fumes 💤

My entire married life has been dedicated to IVF. I remember convincing myself that I hadn’t fallen pregnant in the 3 years prior to my wedding because I was ‘meant’ to be married. I was meant to graduate, I was meant to get a stable job, I was meant to have the wild hen do and the big wedding. I was going to fall pregnant after the wedding (I convinced myself on my honeymoon I was, when actually I was just PMT), and I was simply meant to have my happily ever after the ‘traditional’ way. It’s funny how we try to bury our problems and justify them.

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Hello, I'm Amber and welcome to my blog! I currently live in the East of England with my husband and best friend, Marco, and our gorgeous red fox Labrador, Bruce. I am a lifestyle and infertility blogger (and activist!), having been nominated for a Pride of Peterborough Award 2019 and leading the Fight For IVF Campaign. My blog exists to help other women who are navigating their late-twenties and early-thirties with the added stress of infertility feel heard and represented. This is a destination for you to find your spark, reclaim your lives, and remember who you are outside of infertility. Find everything from hacks to navigate the world of fertility, first-hand experiences, storytelling, and feel-good, self-appreciating content. INSTAGRAM: @amber.izzo YOUTUBE: Amber Izzo

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